Monday, October 1, 2012


“Yes, and all who desire to live godly in Christ Jesus will suffer persecution.” (2Timothy 3:12)
So there I was sitting in a holding cell with a copy of the warrant for my arrest in my hand. Not knowing what to think, say, or do I curled up on the metal bench and tried to go to sleep. I could not sleep, my mind was racing and my spirit was low. I have just been charged with a felony for a crime I did not commit. Not any ordinary felony but a felony that discredit me before I can even approach the bench. I did not want my mother to see me cry, so I held back my tears but on the inside I felt as if I was raped. I felt the justice system just had its way with me, stripping me of my creditability, dignity and self-worth. Most of all I felt there was no one on earth who could help me. Earlier that day I called my mentor and asked her to pray for me. I desperately needed prayer because at that time, I could not find the words. Shame and guilt filled my conscious and all I can think about is all the things I've done wrong within the past year. For example, how I did not guard my eye gates like I should have or did not guard my ear gates like I should have. Or about how I went out with my friend for drinks days before. I began to think about how irresponsible I have been with my temple and how unworthy I was to even whisper the word help. It is ironic how in my time of need I ran from the very thing I was supposed to run to, my heavenly father. Feelings of guilt and shame will do that to you.

To add fuel to the fire, my picture was taken and plastered on the internet alongside my felony charge. Talk about humiliation! It was like the Satan had showed up to steal my joy. And at that time, I felt robbed of peace, joy and a sound mind. BUT God, he heard the prayers of the saints who prayed for me (& continue to pray for me), and he heard my cry. Although, I felt unworthy God used my mother to remind me of who I was. My mother told me no matter how the situation looks, God is still good. The way my mother said God is still good literally sent a shock wave of life throughout my body. It was like I was on a flat line and those words shocked my heart back to life. I thought to myself of how strong my mother is and then I began to think of how strong my grandmother is. Then I began to think about my father and my heritage. Those words triggered thoughts of my earthly bloodline which in turn made me think about my royal bloodline. I am the daughter of the King of kings, Lord of lords. I am of a royal priesthood. "But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light" 1 Peter 2:9 I am a child of God according to his word: 14 For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God. 15 For you did not receive the spirit of bondage again to fear, but you received the Spirit of adoption by whom we cry out, “Abba, Father.” 16 The Spirit Himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, 17 and if children, then heirs—heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ, if indeed we suffer with Him, that we may also be glorified together." Romans 8:14-17 "No matter how the situation looks, God is still good." No matter what they say God is still my Father and ALL things will work together for my good. "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28

My mom does not know but those words she spoke so confidently planted a seed. A seed that was watered by the most unlikely people - my cellmates! YES, my cellmates did not cease encouraging me. I may have spoken 4 words to those girls in the cell with me that day but that did not stop them from telling me it was going to be okay or just giving me a tissue. Even in jail God is still GOOD!

Have you ever been in such a desperate place? Have you ever needed to pray but could not find the words? Shame, fear and guilt hovering over you like a rain cloud. I encourage all those who are literally in the battle field whether it’s at home, work, and school or in the court room. Don't forget who you are. You are the child of the Highest God, what can man do to you? David said in Psalm 56:11 In God I have put my trust; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me? I know it’s difficult to imagine believe me sitting in jail all I can think about was not being able to practice in my profession. BUT GOD! When you serve a God who made all the earth, and who has sole dominion and power over both angels and demons, really what can mere man do to you when your Father is God Almighty?

Read about the story of David and Goliath (1 Samuel 17) when you find yourself up against a giant. David didn't tell God how big Goliath was instead he told Goliath how big his God is. Don't forget! Don't forget who God is. I was a shoe string away from losing my mind! But God! This message is for everyone but more specifically for those who are going up against major devils and demons. The battle is not yours, it is the Lords! According to 2 Chronicles 20:15 "And he said, Listen, all you of Judah and you inhabitants of Jerusalem, and you, King Jehoshaphat! Thus says the LORD to you: ‘Do not be afraid nor dismayed because of this great multitude, for the battle is not yours, but God’s." Don't lose your identity. Hold fast to your promise. Don't cease praying and if you can't find the words link up with someone who can pray for you. If you do not know anyone, EMAIL Thrifty Threads, and I'll (we'll) pray for you! I got through the recent events because I had people praying for me and most of all God reminded me of who I was and whose I was.

My battle is not over; Satan is not playing any games. He wants to steal, kill and destroy me and he is using every one he can. So I am staying prayed up and linked up! Sometimes the most anointed children of God are prosecuted the worse. After all, think about what happen to Jesus. Yes, and all who desire to live godly in Christ Jesus will suffer persecution. (2 Timothy 3:12)

Below are just a few scriptures of whom God is and who the children of God are.

Who is God? 

God is all knowing and all seeing - And God said to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM.” (Exodus 3:13)

God is a vindicator - Vindicate me, O LORD my God, according to Your righteousness; And let them not rejoice over me (Psalm 35:24)

God is a healer - He heals the brokenhearted And binds up their wounds (Psalm 147:3)

God is Merciful - But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, (Ephesians 2:4)

God is faithful - “Therefore know that the LORD your God, He is God, the faithful God who keeps covenant and mercy for a thousand generations with those who love Him and keep His commandments; (Deuteronomy 7:9)

God is Love - And we have known and believed the love that God has for us. God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God and God in him. (1 John 4:16)

Who are the children of God? 

Light of the World- “You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. (Matthew 5: 14)

Wonderfully Made - "I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well." (Psalm 139: 14)

Redeemed – "Let the redeemed of the LORD say so, Whom He has redeemed from the hand of the enemy" (Psalm 107:2)

Forgiven - "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." (1John1:9)

-- Demo, Team TT

1 comment:

  1. It took courage to share your story, I know that everything will be just fine, you are a humble child of God and he will see you and your mother through! I'm only a phone call away, Love ya! ~Nesia~